Here's the lowdown:
I initially started blogging to create some sort of extension of myself I'd be able to look back on, but as I looked back on all my posts I realised how I'd been putting forward this edited and subdued version of myself, which is exactly what I didn't want to do! I know it's not like there's a truckton of y'all reading, but more than anything this blog is for ME, and how can I enjoy blogging when I'm not being ME?
I took a break, which then lead to a sort of "purge" of quite a few social media platforms I had been using. I got to this point where I actually despised social media, and how everything felt so fake and pointless, but then I realised how social media and such isn't itself all that bad - how we use it is what determines it's power. Hippy-dippy shit, I know, but hear me out: a lot of social media out there is pretty damn empty, let's be real. They're not promoting positivity and more often than not, it leaves people feeling unfulfilled. I know I've had my fair share of moments where I'm chilling at my desk chowing down on pasta watching these super fit girls go on amazing adventures some cosmetic company payed for and just felt like I was missing out on life or that I'm almost behind in life! Social media isn't some evil power, but if you look at it the wrong way and let it get into your head, it can have a pretty gnarly effect on you. All those people posting pictures and videos, they're real people who probably have just as many issues and insecurities - majority of the time all we're seeing is one split second into their life that has been edited and refined. I don't think anybody really goes onto Instagram or Facebook with the intent to make others jealous or feel inferior - they just want to put forward the best, most appealing representation of their life they can and there is nothing wrong with that. Just don't forget that at the end of the day, your life is yours and just because somebody is leading their life in a different way, that doesn't take away from your life or happiness.
Well that was on heck of a tangent! What I'm really trying to say is that even though I went through a period of not enjoying social media, I've sort of switched gears on how I see it because it's sort of up to everybody to make it a positive experience. I love YouTube and Instagram and Tumblr, but I want to do my best to present myself as true to life as possible and to make sure I only leave positivity in my wake on such platforms.
WOW I am absolutely horrible at getting to the point! The. point. is.
I think I'm going to try my hand at blogging again, but as ME. I'm not sure how long this will go for - perhaps I'll post a bit then get bored again, who knows! But for now I'm excited to start having a place to put all my thoughts and interests.
Not sure exactly how riveting this will be for you all, but as the Camp Rock classic states:
"This is real, this me!"
So, buckle up kiddos (how fuckin' cheesy was that?! Grade A material right there!)!